Childhood dreams

Childhood dreams, Egg Yolk tempera,
copyright 120608, 60x80

There's more to life but I have not taken the step, not fully, be my own archaeologist and find the digged treasures in my soul. The time has come, it's dark and I'm scared but I want to find the truth, the truth about myself. Deep, deep down there are nice memories, a sweet little girl and another girl, sisters in fairy tales. For a while I become disturbed, we are not the same people anymore, we want to go back, back to the days when we were children, you wonderful childhood. Naive, small, creative, cats, peaches, platonic love, big dresses, grandma's colorful scarves, French jewelry, smell of mint, a neighbor's donkey, play and play all day. When did I say for last time, that I will go out and play? I also wondered why the stars do not fall from the sky. It can not be true that I have forgotten childhood dreams, that I stopped playing, that I have stopped searching for treasures. Thank you God, you are always by my side, you are a protector of childhood dreams. There are those that give energy and hope, I've found my, my treasures. Ask strange questions, I will again, play will I also with my sister, and why not?

Confidence

Akryl on canvas, 70x100, copyright 120223

Here and now I sit with my treasures, I have learned the game of life. I have played chess with myself for a long time but that is how I came to know myself. Making the right decisions at the right time, and without fear is my new everyday life. I found my faith, the insight leads me and I can enjoy the moment. Strength lays in the security and confidence even if the foundation is a chess board. I devote myself to my dreams, plans for the life I always wanted, it does not take much more. This painting will inspire you and remind you of what is important. I understand and am fully prepared not to be worrying anymore and not to be afraid. I can be a Queen if I want, thats what I feel right now, I live, breathe and my existence has purpose. Here, now, and for all eternity. I have found myself and myself has found the Ego.

Desire

Egg yolk tempera, 73x91, copyright 120214

Wonderful night with inspiring stars, it is so quiet and I live in the present. Everything I read, learned and experienced is transformed into knowledge, and I have something big going on. By being born again, I feel beautiful and like a pure soul. My environment, my thoughts, what I do, it feels very heavy at times. I know I have to drag myself away, meditation, relaxation and insight that I will not allow new input to come into my thoughts. Learned something new, humility, no contest, no prestige, unconditional love for myself and others, the passion has room to grow. Faith made ​​me aware, my inner voice speaks, and I will never be the same person again. My will, my hope and all I dream about coming to the surface. I'm naked under the sky, I dress myself in new clothes, energy, courage, insight, inspiration and unlimited inflow of everything I need. I will use it well. I will find the meaning of my life and help others find theirs.

New thoughts

"New Thoughts!, egg yolk tempera on canvas, copyright 120205

Many years have passed, the experience of others, did not have time for my own, it was not like they said, whom have I become? Strange rules I followed slavishly, back and forth, they became part of my character but I did not give up. Life is full of power, it finds its own ways, my time has come and courage I have gathered. The thirst for my own experiences, thoughts, made me climb and sit on the roof, a beautiful bird's eye view, watching, almost staring, and can not get enough. Interpretation of the security, values, people pleasing, there is an erroneous, it has been my prison? Now I can see, all I have and everything I believe in, aha, from the top is easier to see. There's more than I thought, awareness and knowledge helps, I've learned something new. Obviously, I see clearly, I can not go back and I do not want either. There is a different future, my qualities and my will, I will listen to. I want to be me, Peacock from paradise, pleasure to give and take. New thoughts scared me, but not anymore, I know what I want. Share with everyone, wonderful worlds, a thousand words, and the journey to the roof.

Golden persistence

I'm fine, big house, nice furniture, work, friends, leisure, life goes on, happy faces, cooking, and sometimes on vacation. Thinking and feeling, thinking and feeling, my dreams are appearing, and I begin to see what I did not see. Yet I am still in what I already have. The decision is mine, controlling life in another direction, insecurity, fear, a lot of ideas but nothing is 100% safe. Speaks, reads, turns upside down, Alice in Wonderland, which route to take, have found a new ground to stand on, but first a jump without a parachute. Sometimes calm and sometimes stormy, but the foundation is stable, there is solution, realizing the dream, I will with patience. Aha, individualize, persistence, faith, balance, clear mind and keep the will.

egg yolk tempera on canvas, 65x81, copyright 120127